Monday, September 24, 2012

Finding My Doctor

So I am a little obsessed with Doctor Who.

And by a little I mean a lot.

I have been watching the seasons constantly, no other show holds a candle to Doctor Who. If  you don't know about it 1) you are missing out but 2) if you do start watching it, you will be hooked and wish you knew the Doctor in real life. The Doctor is a Time Lord who travels through time and helps species and maintains justice and peace. Sounds cheesy, but if you watched the series all of the adventures and trials that are endured make the plot seem epic and surreal!

I love seeing posts on Pintrest and on FB with pictures from an episode with memorable quotes. I always think "awwww, I love that part!" or "that was so good!!!" you get the picture.

And sadly that little thought of "what if?" has creeped into my mind. Wouldn't life be so much grander if the Doctor were real? That aliens existed and this Doctor could go through space and time and pick me as his traveling companion. That would be insanely awesome and fulfill my life! I have seriously had these thoughts.

And that scares me so badly, because I am treading that fine line between enjoying a TV show and desiring something beyond God. 

I know, I went there. When I first had this thought in my head my stomach turned into knots. I thought "is this true? Am I desiring an alternate universe because I don't think this one is good enough?" And honestly it was true. The Doctor seems like a great adventure because right now I am not enjoying the adventure I am on right now.

I have senioritis, like insanely bad. I am done with school, I just want to intern and join staff with Cru so badly! I want to be in ministry instead of trying to juggle 3 research projects. So yeah, I do want to jump into the TARDIS (the Doctor's Time Machine) and have adventures!

I think a lot, so within this little debate in my head I suddenly thought, "Jesus is better than the Doctor!" Jesus is actually the ULTIMATE TIME LORD! He has survived millennium without needing to regenerate (become injured and thus change bodies) and has impacted so many people in this world. People fear his name whether they believe in him or not. Jesus invites me all the time to join him in the adventure of the Great Commission. He truly won't ever say goodbye to me or leave me on Earth to live life without him. I can call on him and not need to wait years on end for him to rescue and love. Jesus loved and felt emotions, he desires a deep and personal relationship with me. He will not lead me to harm, while I might not know His plan, it is always for my benefit. When I fail He won't yell or scold me but cover me in love. 

That means Jesus > The Doctor. And if I ever think Jesus doesn't use people for crazy insane adventures I can pick up the Bible to see all of the epic battles and adventures that people went on for Jesus, with Jesus, after hearing about Jesus. I'd say that's better than any TV show can capture. I can also pick up the Bible again and again and find something new and different about all the adventures, honestly after I finish watching all the seasons of Doctor Who I won't enjoy them half as much as when I watched them the first time. The Bible will always be new and different because not only do I have The Doctor (Jesus) but I kind of have the TARDIS in me, by way of the Holy Spirit. 

Okay, so maybe I am reading way too much into Doctor Who, but for me having these crazy insane parallels allows me to appreciate and love my God all the more. He truly can be seen in everything, even in secular British sci-fi TV shows! 

And while there are moments when yes I can't always feel Jesus' presence, I have the promise of seeing him again when I enter the eternal gates and he will never ever leave me.

But for that time in between here and there I look at songs like "I Will Wait" by Mumford and Sons to remember that the wait is completely worth it, because one day I will look and see him standing there in the distance, and hopefully say something like "Hello, I am Jesus" and I will fall on my knees and realize that He is what has been in my life, He is what I have always wanted. 

Lyrics to "I Will Wait"
 And I came home
Like a stone
And I fell heavy into your arms
These days of dust
Which we've known
Will blow away with this new sun

And I'll kneel down
Wait for now
And I'll kneel down
Know my ground

And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

So break my step
And relent
You forgave and I won't forget
Know what we've seen
And him with less
Now in some way
Shake the excess

But I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

So I'll be bold
As well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So take my flesh
And fix my eyes
That tethered mind free from the lies

But I'll kneel down
Wait for now
I'll kneel down
Know my ground

Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
And bow my head
Keep my heart slow

Cause I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you



I would love to look back on my life and think this; " I travelled across the world. From the ruins of New York, to the fusion mills of China, right across the radiation pits of Europe. And everywhere I went I saw people just like you, living as slaves! But if [Elise Hebert] became a legend then that's wrong, because my name isn't important. There's someone else. The man who sent me out there, the man who told me to walk the Earth. And his name is [Jesus Christ]. He has saved your lives so many times and you never even knew he was there. He never stops. He never stays. He never asks to be thanked. But I've seen him, I know him... I love him... And I know what he can do" 

Jesus is and always will be my Doctor, and that is better than any made up Time Lord!